.Saturday, October 22, 2011 ' 11:10 AM Y
skirts . . . for a day.
here i am to update my neglected blog after so long.
to tell you the truth, ive always wanted to update it,
its just that foremost, im sick of tired and blabbering abt the
same old werk thingy that has been bugging me all the time.
but still, i chose to relate it so that i will remember it,
that somehow at that point of my life, i was feeling this bad.
. . . and im still feeling this miserably bad.
really, no one and i say, no one can understand this.
(well, except for my boyfriend who have been supporting me)
my werkload is really getting bad to worst, honestly.
my weekends will be screw up because of this, and
this silly person, me, will be thinking about it every minute, everyday.
once a week, i will be in tears, if im lucky, it won't be that frequent.
i will be hot-tempered to my loved ones, especially to my bf.
how am i, to take this lying down. i cant do this anymore.
its tiring to me. its more tiring for them to see.
. . . and so, my conclusion is to give myself 3 months.
and maybe soon, i will be tendering my resignation, as simple as that.
i know what you are gonna say, i can predict.
but i cant hold on to this job any longer. please understand.
)':
the benefits sucks, 7 days of leave.
(if that is approved by her, and she will give one black face)
my boss, don't even fcuking trust what i do.
the pay is damn little, and the things you need to do is so so much.
and there is so much much more to that.
everything and i mean everything doesnt go well.
and in too that, i lost my true self, as if in my happiness.
i wasnt cheerful anymore, i was more like a lost person in total.
so this is my summary of my life; my misery.
i hope i can get out of this darkness soon, insyallah.
i dun wanna quit so readily with the things i do.
but with the circumstances im facing, please understand.
im suffering. i just need your support. thats all.
but till this day, i wanna thank for my boyfriend.
for he, was the only one who was giving me support all this while.
i love you, so so much sayang. ((:
and ALLAH, for all the help i needed.
for being there when i need HIM the most, allhamdulilah.
ya allah, please help me through my difficult process.
give me strength to fight all this obstacles by myself.
i pray to always be close to you, everyday. amin,
